I’m scared of the idea of being “well”. At this point I’ve been “unwell” for about 7 years now and the truth is, I just don’t know who I am without my various ailments. From the age of 12 I’ve had noticeable scoliosis which has meant me having to see an osteopath each month and… Continue reading A Magical Cure
Completely random post today, but it turns out a few people were interested in how I write my notes. I’m doing open university at the moment so my life is taking notes from the books and lectures and online resources before completing essays on that topic. I also spent a lot of my a levels… Continue reading How I write my notes
When you’re a child and you have a nightmare, you wake up, get cuddled and everything is okay when the light is on. When you’re a child you dream of scary monsters that lurk in the shadows. When you’re a child, a toy makes everything better. As a 21 year old girl with schizoaffective disorder,… Continue reading Nightmares and psychosis
I’ve always been thin. I’ve been accused of being too skinny, or told to go eat a burger, but the reality was that I ate just fine but I happened to be skinny. My parents were both really skinny when they were younger so it was totally normal for me. I never hated my body,… Continue reading Weight gain
Am I too honest about what happens to me? When my friends ask how I’m doing, should I respond honestly? Am I actually just driving people away? Are they scared for me or scared of me? Does it matter if they treat me differently? The voices tend to get really loud when I start talking… Continue reading Do I stop sharing?
A lot of people ask me why I’m a feminist. Why I’m not a populist or a humanist or an egalitarian or some other made up word. I’m a feminist, because I believe in the social, economic and political equality of the genders. That’s what it means. I’m not a man hater. I’m not a… Continue reading Why I’m a Feminist
12/05/17 The following events took place between 7 and 11pm “They’re coming” a kind voice said, “get your things and get out of here.” I panicked. My heart rate sky rocketed and I couldn’t breathe. “What’s wrong?” Alex asked “I’m having a panic attack” I forced out between gasping for air. I tumbled off the… Continue reading The Chronicles of Me Part 5
I’m not watching 13 reasons why, but everyone’s talking about it and telling me I should watch it – so here’s my response to anyone asking why I’m not watching it. I know two people who have committed suicide. Ive felt on the edge myself several times and have cut my legs and arms in… Continue reading Self preservation
Everyone will say that their friends are the best, but mine really are. After becoming unwell nearly four years ago now, the importance of having good quality, reliable friends has been magnified in my life. In fact getting ill, really showed me who my true friends are in the first place. Ive picked some new… Continue reading To my friends
This isn’t an anniversary of anything, there is nothing special about today, but still I sit here watching you stroke Bella the cat and I think about how much I love you. I feel so blessed to have you, you found me in one of my darkest moments. You convinced me I deserved love and… Continue reading Dear Alex
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